Heeere Comes Bridezilla!!

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Hi to everyone out there in blog land. Just wanted to stop by and talk about that mythical creature that comes out around the time of their wedding. It is the Bridezilla and well I believe that I am starting to turn into one. Yesterday I had a meeting with my planner, my mother, and Lovey. Well I can tell you there were tears and they won't coming from Itty Bitty. I don't know what is coming over me, but I swear I just want everything to be done with. I am stressing because crazy me I walked into this wedding planning without a set budget. I guess I never set one because 1. I'm not working at the moment and I am using my unemployment as well as student loan funds to pay for the wedding and 2. I am counting on my family to kind of come through on some financing as well. It also doesn't help that I am pregnant. Yep I'll be walking down the aisle with a bun in the oven. At first I was worried about what people would think, but screw 'em. I'm almost 30 and I already have one baby. It was bound to happen I guess. Anyway, the one thing that I am really being a bridezilla about is the decor for the ceremony and the reception. I don't like anything chintzy looking and cheap and I'm afraid that if I cut back on it then that's what it will become. I find myself kicking my butt all over Raleigh because me and Lovey planned on eloping, but I wanted a wedding where my family could see me walk down the aisle. My mom and my dad got married in Dillon, SC at a small chapel without family watching and my grandmother is counting on me to be the one that walks down the aisle. My brother is one of those guys that if he gets married it will be a huge surprise, so it falls to me. I know that the day will be beautiful and nothing matters except for me and Lovey, but the perfectionist in me has visions of a made for tv wedding dancing in my head. Well nothing to do now but wrap up the final details and wait for September 10th to roll around. Until next time ladies and gents...